This morning I cried. Yep, my eyes started leaking and my mascara ran.
This is a big deal for me as for years I’ve described myself as being emotionally bankrupt. The stress and trauma of a destructive relationship, burn out, chronic fatigue, chronic stress and years on anti-depressants left me in a state of being emotionally flatlined.
But that is changing. And I’d like to think that the hormones I’m on have something to do with that. Stupid, amazing, wonderful hormones are making me feel and cry again.
A few weeks ago I started tearing up in a movie (my first viewing of The Greatest Showman) during a scene that was particularly relevant to me. I was deeply moved and that has not happened for a long, long time.
People cautioned me that HRT would cause an emotional roller coaster for the first 6-12 months. Whilst I haven’t experienced anything as dramatic as that it is lovely to start feeling distinct and diverse emotions again.